“The biggest thing the Lord has been showing me is that I don’t have to have it all together. I don’t have to have all the answers. I don’t even have to know what my next step is. All He wants me to do is show up where He has me and love the people who come across my path everyday.”– Nichole
When you were younger, what did you think your life would look like?
When I was younger, I always thought I would be married and have children of my own. My dream was to be a mother and a wife, but I’ve also always wanted to share the love of God with people. I didn’t have a clear picture of what it would look like when I was a kid, but I’ve always had a passion to tell people about Jesus. This was often expressed by me praying for my school friends and telling them Jesus loved them.
How did your dreams for the future change?
So many things have changed and I now have new dreams that weren’t even a blimp on my radar when I was a kid, but I’ll talk about the biggest one that’s always been in my heart.
Through the years, I’ve gotten a better picture of what it means to be a mother and a wife and how those things are a ministry of their own. I am not married and I don’t have children, but I feel the Lord has shown me how much work goes into a healthy marriage and also raising healthy children who love God.
My dream now is to find someone who is going in the same direction in life that I am going and wants to partner with me to pursue God’s plan for our lives. And until I find that person, I am willing to wait. I know that it won’t be God’s best if I were to walk out and make things happen on my own.
When I was younger, I always looked at growing up through this romantic lens. I always thought I would meet my “prince charming” when I was 18, and then we’d get married and have kids by the time I was in my early 20s. But now I know to not put my dreams and ambitions on my timeline, and instead allow God to set the pace.
What were the kinds of pivotal moments that led you to where you are today?
Well, the biggest thing that’s influenced me wasn’t a moment but more of a testament of the Lord’s faithfulness. My mom has always loved the Lord, and it’s been her faith, quiet yet persistent, throughout my life that has helped get me to where I am today.
I know that our family, let alone my life, wouldn’t be what it is today without her prayers. When I look at my mom and the way her relationship is with God, it gives me hope for my own life and the dreams I have for myself.
The other thing that really changed my life was when I made the decision to become more involved with my church. Learning how to serve the body of Christ and being a part of something so much greater than myself took my relationship with God to a place I didn’t know it could go. That process of getting out of my comfort zone and meeting new people and praying for them gave me so much confidence and helped me find my voice.
What are you learning right now?
The biggest thing the Lord has been showing me is that I don’t have to have it all together. I don’t have to have all the answers. I don’t even have to know what my next step is. All He wants me to do is show up where He has me and love the people who come across my path everyday.
That might look like giving someone a cup of water, or listening to the exciting things that are happening in my coworker’s life, or even telling someone that God loves them. I’m learning how to walk with God and stay in His presence even when life doesn’t look the way I think it should.
What do you love about your life in this moment?
I am in a very quiet season right now and I am loving how the Lord has been speaking to me. A few years ago, my life was a lot busier and I was serving a lot at my church and I didn’t have much time to myself. I was going from church service to serving at events to staying up late at worship nights. It was a wonderful and stressful time of my life where I really got a taste of working in full time ministry.
Now, my life has taken a completely different turn and I have a lot more time on my hands, but I’m finding that the Lord’s voice is the same. He speaks to me in different ways and at different times, but He still feels and sounds the same. That’s what I love about my life right now. He is still the same, no matter where I find myself.
What brings you joy/fills your soul?
Painting. And dogs.
I’ve always been creative, and when I was younger and going through school, I was always drawing. Currently I’m in love with painting with water colors and being creative is something that’s really important to me.
Also, animals are a big passion of mine — dogs specifically. Sometimes I wonder, “Maybe I should just be a dog trainer. That way I can pet all the puppies!”
If a kid walked up to you asking for your advice and you only had a few minutes to give them your best tip, what would it be?
I would say don’t be afraid to make mistakes. Especially with God. I’m finding that He’s such a good Father who loves to watch His kids grow up. So don’t take yourself too seriously — something I am still working on myself!
What do you wish everyone knew about the mid-twenties?
The biggest thing I’ve realized about my twenties is that everyone my age is still trying to figure life out. We’re all in the same boat! I am so done with feeling like I’m behind on knowing how to do everything. I know I’m not the only one who feels this way.
You can blame society, culture, or even the enemy, but I don’t want to keep holding myself up against this standard that I have to know what I’m doing all the time. It ends up leaving you with no room to mess up and it robs you of creativity and being willing to follow the Lord to places that don’t fit into your idea of ‘perfect’.
Even though I am still figuring things out, I am trying my best to not carry shame and comparison with me everywhere I go. So, if you’re in your mid-twenties and feeling like you don’t know what you’re doing, stop worrying. You’re exactly where you need to be. Make sure to spend time with God and don’t be afraid when He calls you in a direction you never thought you’d go. He has way better things in store for you than you could accomplish on your own.